Yes, I do have wings.

kujiro @ 2008-05-17T03:48:00

2008-05-17T07:54:01Z

I wonder if you still read this. I wish things would have worked out. Some days, I still thumb the digits of your old phone number on my cell. I still read your journal from time to time. Not all of it. I like to catch a glimpse of your life. I read the entry about E and the ring. It hurt. I was surprised I could still feel so strongly about your own pain.

And you, who never read this and never will, I still don't understand what happened. Did you love me? Is that why you couldn't be my friend anymore once I met Jude? I suspected it for a long time, and a few people told me that's what it was, but... I miss your laugh.

I really miss you two. Maybe I miss the way things were.

kujiro @ 2005-09-01T11:43:00

2005-09-01T15:44:10Z

Gameworks tonight.

$10, 7pm-midnight.

Come.

ATTENTION! Miamians!

2005-08-23T17:46:56Z

MIAMI PEOPLE-

Have y'all noticed that no one does anything here? :P It's a bit sad that we live in this big city and usually do nothing with it, since I know the majority of people who read my journal and who live in Miami don't like clubs and can live without the beach weekly. So! I've prodded around and a bunch of people want to do different things.

CURRENTLY, I/we've been doing the following:

Mondays- Bowling at Don Carters (Kendall and 137th). It's $10 for 8pm-1am and sometimes you don't even have to pay (ask me for explanation, it's kosher).

Thursdays- Gameworks (Sunset Place). Yeah, Gameworks is usually expensive but on Thursdays, 7pm-Midnight, it's $10 for the night, which is damned cheap.

Suggestions for other things to do!

I'd like to host movie nights once in a while (maybe every other weekend, or every three weekends? depending on exams and what have you). Just bring an item (drinks, chips, etc) or chip in for pizza (gogo Dominos/Little Ceasar's cheap deals), bring movies if you'd like. Can stay for a few movies or stay the night for as many as you can stay awake to watch.

Comedy clubs- Impromedy was suggested, and The Improv as well. Latter seems to be more expensive. Can be done, of course, but I think if we want to do something semi-usual the Impromedy might be better. Can look into it. Would run you like $10.

If you have other suggestions, please leave a comment or call my cell, 786-262-9288.

I'd love it if some of you did this.

2004-10-22T14:23:45Z

Leave an anonymous comment with [one of] the following:

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lyrics to a song:
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Closing LiveJournal

2003-11-30T02:30:36Z

I'm sorry guys, but those of you who do not have LJs and that are not on my friends list, will no longer be able to read my journal. It got to too many people IRL that I don't want reading my journal. I want to express all my feelings here. And some of those are not for everyone to read. If you still want to read and don't have an account (Mara has offered to help and give a code but I'm saying no, not taking codes from her), tell me, I might e-mail you posts if you really want me to.

AIM: Arcane Moira
E-mail: rparchive@hotmail.com

Sorry, again.

[EDIT] You can still read old posts, but not any new ones.

-Alexi

Really? I thought it would be the opposite. ::coughs::

2003-11-29T18:34:08Z

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:	You die in sweet bliss while having sex with your lover or partner. Seems they were so good your heart couldn't stand it and stopped. Talk about a heart breaker, but at least everyone sees you inyour casket with a smile of your face.
Death Date:	September 10, 2009
Number attending your funeral?	90
How much will you leave to friends and family?	$2,015,201

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kujiro @ 2003-11-26T23:18:00

2003-11-27T04:18:44Z

I hate how you have to bleed..when..

kujiro @ 2003-11-26T21:35:00

2003-11-27T02:35:47Z

I should just, die.

kujiro @ 2003-11-26T00:54:00

2003-11-26T05:55:16Z

Right now I just want to climb into bed and see someone there. Be able to pass my hand over his sides and kiss him and just lay there, on my side, gazing into his eyes. So I wouldn’t be alone. So I could sleep a sleep composed of a hug…

kujiro @ 2003-11-25T21:13:00

2003-11-26T02:15:44Z

Happiness-

A fleeting emotion which is the embodiment of infatuation*, characterized by instability, elusiveness, and a feeling which is often said to resemble ‘emptiness’ after the condition ceases to exist.

* Infatuation is not restricted to false love or passion, but ranges from infatuation of life to that of hope, ideals, et cetera.

kujiro @ 2003-11-25T13:31:00

2003-11-25T18:31:43Z

Hrm. The LJ looks like crap in 800x600

EXTRA EXTRA!!

2003-11-25T03:13:14Z

I customized my LJ after the entire set of overrides magically dissapeared. Text still has to be done, but then I'm done.

kujiro @ 2003-11-24T19:02:00

2003-11-25T00:03:43Z

I'm trying to cheer myself up by binging and reading The Devil's Dictionary

[EDIT] Deleted stupidity before it began to breed.
::Sighs:: I still don't feel good, at all.
I need someone.
I need love.
I need to wake up and smile, every morning, or at least most.

Worthless

2003-11-24T18:31:32Z

That's what I am.

Heh

2003-11-22T00:42:19Z

Ontop of the cat.. who was put down, my day was horrible too.

...

2003-11-21T15:37:59Z

G-d I need a fucking hug right now. It’s so sad how oblivious everyone in the world can be to one’s suffering. And it’s disgusting how so many people don’t –care- about one’s suffering.. I was off to pay some due for school today, so I wasn’t suppose to go where I went. I almost stepped on a cat. I saw it and I immediately understood it wasn’t in good condition, at all. It was dying. We think it was hit by a car. I ran to find a professor and Kirby found her instead, she called another professor, and eventually she came with a box and we wrapped her in a towel. She won’t make it, and I know it. I’ve been around injured animals enough to know. ::Starts crying again:: It’s really so unfair. Some people are complete assholes, the nadir of life (humans in general are the nadir of life, so being the lowest of the low is horrible) and they live wonderful lives! They lie, cheat, mislead, some rape and murder, and they live! Yet this wonderful cat that wasn’t asked to be abandoned on campus (or be born from parents who were abandoned), has to suffer like this.. g-d I fucking hate how this world works. I missed my class. I’m crying in the computer lab. All I can say for all this is that it didn’t die alone, and it didn’t suffer longer than it had to. ..

Ooh..

2003-11-21T14:37:33Z

Be An Anime Character by mangacatgirl
Character Name
Eyes	Black
Hair	Short Black Spikey Hair
Fashion Style	Black Leather
Attitude	Hard Worker
Role	Jpop/Jrock Artist

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Jason

2003-11-21T00:55:03Z

Yay! He's alive.
Well, you know me. If I don't see someone that I'm use to seeing every day for about three days (well, even one day often), I don't stop coming up with different scenarios in which the person died. It's quite horrible, I'm never left to rest. Always something horrible happening in my mind. Heh.

Well apparently there was some construction near he lived and the wires got cut.

So, he’s okay. ^^

kujiro @ 2003-11-17T19:33:00

2003-11-18T00:35:27Z

!??!!?!?

IPODS ARE STILL $400!??!?! Hell no I'm not spending that much money! ::Screams::

“Is this a dagger which I see before me…?”

2003-11-17T23:45:37Z

::Dances:: Got an A in Calculus. And you want to know the sad thing? I’m actually enjoying Calc. And I mean, a lot. It’s the first year since Algebra I where I enjoy taking as many problems as I can and figuring them out. Hehe. ^_^ In a good mood. I got a B+ on a fucking Lit composition though. I was about to hack Dr.Ware’s neck..B+. It couldn’t be an A-?!?! Well, I still have like a 3.8 in that class now. Damn B. ::Curses:: Anyhow, yeah. I continue to be one of the few people who show up to creative writing every day. Heh, people are under the impression Schroeder doesn’t care about attendance. They’re going to find nice Fs on their transcript. Bakas. Well he likes me since I do my work and research. I’ve started gathering everything I thought up for the next story. Going to be a very, very fun piece to write. Yay.

Hrm. I think I might tutor Calculus next semester or year… I was offered a job tutoring at like 45 an hour.. I couldn’t take that much money. ::Shrugs:: Anyway, I’m still not good enough to tutor. --;. I guess I will next year. Would be nice money. Ugh.. 9 classes next semester, ::cries::

I have to memorize a bunch of lines from Macbeth (I’ve read this play WAY too many times. I think it’s the 4th time for school). I’m trying to find myself a good book on medieval theology. Off topic, Dr.Ware is lending me a book on 14th century society which looks awesome. Hrm. I also need to get an OT. My mom said we had one. It’s a French NT, not an English OT… --;. Baka. It’s quite ironic considering that last year I refused to take a certain class on the basis that we would be forced to read some books from the OT, and I was so blindly atheist that I professed a secular school couldn’t force that. Shame I was an idiot and didn’t take the class. Now I want to read the entire OT. So interesting. Heh.

::Recites lines:: Almost done with the second of the three sets.

::Listens to ‘Lifehouse -Spin’ which has been playing all too much randomly on his play list of over 1.5K songs:: Rich told me to get this song a while after he broke up with me.. and I didn’t get it for a very long time. Not until about two months ago. But I just remembered a few days ago why I downloaded it when I saw the name: Because Rich told me to. Heh. “You and I wouldn’t change a thing”. Bastard. You really should have dealt with your fear Rich. I know you don’t have much courage, especially in yourself, but this meant more to me and you than just a normal relationship. But I’m sorry for all the stress it caused you.. Okay, moving on. And yes I’m over him, but it doesn’t mean I can’t miss what he had. I don’t miss *him*, I miss the relationship.. the feelings.. the reciprocity of those feelings.

I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be than be alone and convinced that I know

When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
'Cause I know I'm not sure
About anything but you wouldn't have it any other way

When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

Spinning turning watching burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking crawling climbing falling
All my life has found its meaning

You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

I miss Mara. I miss everyone in VA. I really felt so wonderful. It was one of those very seldom times in my life in which happiness was not just a fleeting emotion. I’ve come to believe in my life it will amount to only that, though: a fleeting emotion. I want that night back. That night where my feet moved to the beats as they intertwined and looped, a cycle on which I pivoted but changed my outlook with each rotation [of the cycle]. Where droplets of sweat were just pushed into my hair.. where I was truly happy. At peace.

kujiro @ 2003-11-16T18:55:00

2003-11-16T23:58:32Z

I'm sick of people taking advantage of me.

I'm sick of people realizing I have a good heart, and using it.
I'm sick of people realizing how compassionate I am, and using it.
I'm sick of people fucking thinking I don't have feelings other than "give give give because it's good".

I'm a fucking human too, you know? I cry. Every day.
BECAUSE I'M IN PAIN

Not a character I like

2003-11-16T21:18:58Z

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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But at least the description fits.

And..

Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Stuff

2003-11-16T20:07:20Z

I don’t really know what to say. I haven’t been in the mood to really write anything.

I got 101 % on my Psych test (-2% because of one wrong question but got the +3% extra credit right), so yippee.. I have a Chem exam Thursday. Again.

I’m still a bit sick. I hanged out with Miguel all of yesterday. Was fun. We went to see Matrix Revolutions (that’s the name, right?) around 7. Was okay. Obvious that more money was used in this production than the first, which isn’t surprising considering they had more money. Heh.

Slow day. I want to remort on Lensmoor. It won’t happen soon. I have to do a lot of writing for Lensmoor, though. RP points, statuses, finally detail my damn equipment, help Ben (tpb Naomh) with some stuff, etc. I had a lot of fun Rping last night after Mig left though.

I’m going to go back to studying. ::Shrugs::

Oh, and I'm actually spending the money to get an Ipod into serious consideration. Gr

Another LJ quiz which fits.. they're on a roll

2003-11-13T01:19:28Z

YOU ARE WATER!

Your inner element is one of great compassion and
love. You are an extremely kind-hearted person
who tends to care more about helping others
than themselves at times. You gravitate to
people who need help or just a shoulder to cry
on and you provide them with the support they
need. You harbor an intense compassion for
others that is truly admirable. You are an
incredibly easy-going person who just goes with
the flow and tries to be comfortable no matter
what. You tend to collect things, little
reminders or memories of time gone past. Any
career that will allow you to help others in
any way is ideal for you. Love is a essential
element in your life, and your search for the
one and only for you is paramount to all
things. The one you choose with have to be
loyal, honest, and able to share their emotions
with you.

Your greatest strengths are your ability to bond
with others and help them through the tough
times. Your weaknesses are your tendency to get
overly emotional on things and drive those you
care about away with your emotional outbursts.
Balancing your strengths and weaknesses is
crucial for you to achieve balance in your
life.

Astrologically, Water is associated with the signs
of Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces. You are most
compatible for either love or friendship with
another Water Elemental or with an Earth. You
are least compatible with a Fire Elemental.

Now that you have an idea of your strengths and
weaknesses, why don't you put them to the test?
If you follow my lead I can take you to a game
world where you can explore different sides of
yourself and taste real power....

...and all
the world can be yours.

Which of the 5 Prime Elements are you?
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MP3 Player

2003-11-11T21:27:09Z

My MP3 player is officially dead.. gr..

I'm looking into buying another but I seriously don't want to spend the money. ::Sighs::